Life As Me

So my brother is 11. He just flipped me off, and is cussing in front of my daughter. My mom tells him to watch his mouth, but that's it. Oh yeah, mom, because that's helping soooo much. 

I am constantly getting yelled at for finishing off cheese (when I wasn't the one to eat it all), picking on my brother (when he calls me a retard and the b word, right in front of Azrael), and asking my mom a question. 

My mom is here Thursdays and Saturdays. When she isn't here, she is babysitting or crocheting or at church.  When she is here, she is doing online homework, crocheting, reading, cooking, or cleaning. There really isn't time to talk to her about anything; unless she is taking me to the store or to church.

Ashley is in Arizona until at least October, and I miss her so much. She used to come over all the time.

Katie is unable to hang with me at the moment because her mother is mad at me AGAIN, because I couldn't hang with Katie while her mom went on a date.

Kara lives too far away for me to see a whole lot. And she doesn't have gas very often to come over. She also has volunteer work and a boyfriend to share her time with. Which is cool; I just wish I saw her more. Sometimes it seems like she is the only one who really gets me anymore.

Brandon (my best guy friend) and I don't talk much anymore. I don't see him much anymore, either. It's like he's too busy gambling or sleeping or working to see me or talk to me.

I see my brother and sister on dad's side once or twice a year, and I see my other brother about once a month. 

I haven't heard from my cousin in about a month, and we used to hang out all the time. We were so close, but then Beth happened. She turned her life upside down, and she hasn't been the same since before she met her. My cousin is one of the few people I thought would always be here. Sadly, like many other things I think, I was mistaken. I won't air all her dirty laundry, because that's gossiping, and that wouldn't be very Christian-like of me.

I don't have a babysitter or transportation to get a job or my GED or my license, so I am stuck here, until further notice. Who knows, maybe I will find that right guy for me soon.

Yup, that's my life.